WARNING : read at own discretion. purely ranting and ranting and ranting. if you're here for some happy post, do come back 1 week later.


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ok take it that i am lazy to post about it (although the truth is i dont dare to face the fact that is right in front of me). i wanna be a coward for once ok!
-sigh.
if you are wondering what i am talking about, YES IT IS (yet again) ABOUT F.O.D.

i really feel like killing myself. how many months has it been since we started? 3 months and i am still like some shit. SERIOUSLY. i just feel like taking the knife in the kitchen and just KILL myself. all my mistakes are freaking obvious when dancing with the rest! how can some people still think that i am good when obviously i am not. looking at myself on the computer screen for more than a million times just made me feel even more bad. i think i would need years to correct all those mistakes. BUT I HAVE NO MORE TIME! less than a month and the prelims are here! ): someone help me please? teach me how to dance.

and and i am not asking too much. everytime i say i feel that i am bad, i am really bad. i am not asking too much to be better right? i am not good, and the video proves it all. it is just so... depressing. to know that you are bad yet still cant really do anything about it, i guess that would be the worst feeling ever. ):

on a (not really) lighter note, i think my exco (or some) are getting stress again. :/ CHEER UP OK! let's hang on for 4 more months?