HALF RANTING/EMO POST. read at your own risk.


okay so i've got 200 posts so far.
what a great achievement, given the neglect i've given this blog. ):

so tmr the guys are going to KOREAA.
exciting man, though im not the one going.
hmm actually im not supposed to be online now, but heck, im here anyway.
got some things i really wanna post, but i wonder if it's safe enough.
afterall, i never knew who really reads my blog and who doesnt.
haha just like how i dont reveal myself when i read blogs, i reckon that people do that too. sometimes, it's just great to have some sense of little privacy in the net, when it can be so exposing at times.

hmm okay im in a good mood, i think, so i shall reveal some little not-so-private-things.
discovered a lot of things today. like my love for some people.
hahahahahahaha. sounds sad?
maybe not. but yeah today was this little hangout with some LONGTIMENOHANGOUT friends and im glad to say, i feel really at ease with them. at least not VERY awkward with ALL of them.
i do feel weird with some of the nj people sometimes. it's like, i dont know, maybe i see them too often in school or what. just, uneasy when i hang out with them.
but these people, lets just say, they dont care where you come from, they dont care about your grades. they just treat you as friends, or fellow crazy person. it feels really good. it's like i dont really have to carry any image when im with them you know.

oh wells.
sometimes i really wonder why i bother talking to you. if you are that unwilling to open youself up, then why bother acting as though you are the world's most friendliest person? im not jealous, neither am i wanting to get a place in your group. im just mixing with my friends. is there anything wrong? im not acting up like the rest, so stop thinking i am. im probably not as bad as you think. but forget it, maybe in your eyes, everyone is like that.

haitus alert.
I SHALL STUDY HARD.
FOR YOU PEOPLE TO SEE, THAT IM NOT AS BAD AS YOU THINK.