with a new me (i think, haha without all that stress about my last year in nj, a levels blah blah) and a new blogskin! even though i know there are like none who reads this blog already, but since i've created this blog since 2 years ago, and promised to never close it (and open another one) unless i completely stop blogging, i shall be faithful to what i have promised and continue being a (useless) blogger.

time flies. really, the last time i blogged? it was in july. and i actually said that my haitus will start in sept! haha so i kinda started my haitus on my blog early. i knew my desire for blogging will die, since i dont really have good english to flaunt, and that i dont have an exciting life to talk about. and i kinda got tired of scolding people online, after reading "the types of online people" somewhere. haha bad habits you know! so i decided to make my first step into being a cultured person! :D hahahahah.

a's ended today. hence i am online. makes sense? haha actually i wanted to not use the comp tonight, but i decided that i should do what i want to do, instead of leaving everything to the last min then in the end dont do. i know im wasting electricity and not saving the earth, but when i start work, i doubt i'll be even online! HAHAHA. so must make use of this last last last chance (like real. -.-")

a month of hard work (yes i pia-ed like mad okay! at least i feel so, despite me slacking in quite a lot of ways heheheh) is going to pay off. hahaha im going to believe in that. like what my mum said, if i had done my best, my results doesnt matter anymore. (: even though i might be sad over certain results if it doesnt come out right, but still, i did my best, and i know it. so before i continue, there are people like jongx, nic, jas, rach, ms oon and ms ng, who encouraged me along the way, never giving up on me. THANK YOU TO YOU PEOPLE. your life is going to get better! heh.

a year has ended, and so has my life in nj. it feels weird, today, when i ended my last paper. haha while i feel happy that my stress period is finally over and that my holidays are here, im leaving the school that i've been stuck with for 4 years, the place where i meet people and see them graduate batch by batch. some may say that it's just like secondary school, but i dont really think so? at least not to me, cos there are so much, that i've been through in nj. haha really, more than what i would expect in my 4 years in nan hua, if i ever stayed. HAHAHA.

nj, lead me to dance. i never really knew i could move like that when i was younger. at most i would watch tv and perhaps learn some steps here and there, but never a full choreography and performing for others. i never knew what is pop/lock/krump/whack/house/breaking/ballet etc.
i never knew makeup; never knew how to style my hair; never knew how to look into the audiences' eyes and tell them that im performing. (actually i still do not know how. basically i love the floor more) i never knew i could stretch.

you know in jc, you meet people of diff ages, and of course, diff races. and you will experience a lot of things. i wouldnt say my life in nj was really bad and horrible. but indeed, life is like a roller coaster ride. sometimes you're high up, and sometimes you're down low. i know that since my nan hua days, so i dont expect a lot. but i guess even when i said that, my mind still tends to hope for things, that may be impossible. yeah i got used, betrayed, being expected of a certain standard that wasnt for my age, left alone etc, but i also found friends whom i can turn to, and a lot of other life skills/experience which will make me a better person in the future. (if i put it to good use that is.) :D
so all in all, my life in nj, is.....
okay lah.

HAHAHAHAHA it's been a really long time since i've typed such a long entry and i must say... this entry a bit not coherent? ahah anything that pops into my head just appears. then after typing all, i'll rearrange a bit, then add in here and there. hahaha. so in the end, it's still messy! XD. i miss typing my lah-s leh-s lor-s le-s ma-s ba-s etc. those that i used to type because im so used to speaking them.
(OH I NEED TO CUT DOWN ON MY USE OF FISHES TOO. hahaha too much what the fish at times. XD)

think i should talk about this new blogskin, which i've set to only 1 post each time. i find it very disturbing to read my old posts and all, but didnt want to delete it cos i think sometimes, when you read back, it makes you laugh at your own stupidity/immature acts, and of course, remember the times when you were happy/sad/angry, and the people who had made all those possible. ahhaha. as for the links, i removed almost all, other than the class blog and cheryl's, whom i supposed was the only one who bothered reading and tagging my tagboard. hahaha

okay okay i think this is long enough? shall go and post this, then will edit if anything else i wanna say pops up! haha meanwhile, i shall go clear my table! finally, 4 years worth of notes can be given away/recycled, and my table could probably return to how it looked like before i even started schooling, or, even better, like a new table! (that means i'll have to throw away quite a lot of things)

i miss you guys!
do you miss me?
(: