it's back to the same few questions of how many times.

how many times, have you wanted to give up but didn't?
how many times, have you wanted to step back but didn't?
how many times, have you wanted to just let go but didn't?

how many times, have you convinced yourself that it's all worth it?

just how many times will it take, before it finally gets to you that, it's no longer the thing you have been fighting for all along?