it's been a while since I last blogged and I guess I just had to say, I'm glad that I broke down yesterday.

Being sick/injured is the last thing I would ever want to experience before a show or competition but it seems as though I'm always sick or injured before such events.

5 days before Dancetitude I fractured my foot. 5 days before HOCC I got a fever. It always made me felt weak, and made me feel like I was pulling the entire team down. The timing, is just bad. And this whole being sick thing will torture me as I prepare for the show or competition.

Sigh I guess it's all a test for me. But maybe I'm just not that ready to face it all over again. The process of recovering and enduring, is all done by myself. No one can share this load with me, and that makes it hard to get by. I know my team is with me in spirit, but things are just different.

But no matter what, I will survive. I will never allow myself to break down again, for I'm stronger than that. (: