yes you. this post is meant for you. you may not find this page, but I certainly hope this post finds you well.

you said you were sorry, and you wanted the truth. for what? to justify your apology? to make yourself feel better? to make sure that we are still friends?

truth is, I am not angry. but the fact that you said sorry meant something right? that you must have done something that EVEN you yourself find that it is wrong right? then if it was wrong, why did you do it in the first place? cos you felt that as friends I wouldn't mind? cos it was funny? cos it was "harmless"? what is harmless and what is not? isn't all subjective? perhaps the thing is not whether I mind or not, but  rather, was it a right thing to do?

I don't get it. why do people (me included, sadly) only apologise when things can never return to the original state anymore? Why are they the ones that spoil the whole thing, and yet believe that an apology is sufficient? If we knew that it was wrong, why did we do it? is it just simply because we didn't know? or was it because, we just wanted to push limits and decided to heck care about what others feel?

no matter what, I am disappointed. and I'm not afraid to tell you that in your face. Hopefully, this will give you and everyone else a lesson - that perhaps we should not take things/friendships for granted. nothing stays forever, and almost everything requires maintenance. oh, and please don't think that our friendship is extra strong, cos it's not. don't push me to cut you off as a friend.

because if I do, you'll never make it back.