this post is supposed to be on 12 September!

and so today, I had an headache when I woke up. It kinda started last night before I slept and I was kinda considering skipping class for tomorrow. To sleep for say, 4 hours before waking for a 4 hour lesson was simply not too enticing.
So when my mum came in to wake m up, frankly speaking the urge to fall back asleep was so strong and tempting. I just asked my mum if I could skip school today. she couldn't hear me properly due to me mumbling (as usual) so when I repeated, she exclaimed "huh?!" in a slightly unbelievable tone - as what I have interpreted it to be.

Then as the irrational, having headache me, I got irritated. It felt to me as unreasonable that my mum was not able to emphasize with my situation and wanted me to take some medicine and go to school. I felt, unjustified. Then came the thoughts of how why she couldn't be the "caring" mum who would ask me to sleep in and not worry about school. to make things worse, I wanted to ask my dad to give me a ride, only to find that he had to send his car for servicing and it was totally out of the way. irritated as hell, coupled with the headache, was freaking upsetting. my mum told my dad about my headache and asked if he could just send me. I didn't bother with continuing the conversation cos I felt that was pointless. Might as well save my energy and get my butt to school. so my dad left the house first while I was still sulking over my headache. Then when I got downstairs, my dad shouted for me from opposite and said he would give me a ride but I just said it's okay and left. quite attitude of me ._.

So hopped onto the bus and got to school. Wasn't exactly late but I guess the little sleep i had on the bus managed to make my head feel slightly better. And sitting in class made me feel slightly better that I came. Yes maybe she was going so fast that I could catch no balls, but at least I was there to listen! And I was there to make a new friend and acquire new negotiations skills (if I did acquire that is)

Then I thought back and I was just being a whiny kid. Just wanted the attention of my parents whom I expected to comfort me or take me to school cos I was plain lazy to get my ass to school myself. I guess my mum's "huh" wasn't meant to be shocked that i wanted to miss school but probably I don't know.. haha it could be due to her hearing that I wanna skip school for the first time, or maybe cos she didn't expect my headache to be so bad that I needed to skip school. Or maybe she was just shocked that I am so badass, as compared to my sisters.

So end of the day, I am just a whiny kid that is mature when I'm with my friends but still perfectly a kid when I'm with my family.
And that sucks, cos I never wanted to be the kid. I hate being like the "burden" and childish one who just wanna do things her way. Sadly, I am, for I am dancing cos I want to.

Sigh, perhaps I should stop and see if it's worth it missing so much family night time.