haven't danced for... a week? haha okay actually more than that. cos last week's not counted since it was only vetting. :/

okay so today I went for Verlao's contemp prac and UG. and now my muscles are screaming that I tortured them. not that we didn't do proper warmups, but my muscles just ain't adjusted back yet. I can feel it trembling as I dance, and I can definitely feel the ache that's gonna come tomorrow when I wake up! Unless, I have extra sleep, which might be quite impossible HAHAHA.

a lot of issues regarding commitment recently for dance, and I must say, I am damn torn. sigh having too many clashes of commitments is just too effing irritating. everyone wants you to be there (and yes I wanna be there too) but I can't. it sucks cos every side is giving in and yet I still cannot please everyone. wanna spilt myself up so badly ):

but then again, despite all these, I had a great time at dance today. yes I cui-ed, embarrassed myself by doing wrong things, but hey I guessed I've learnt something. was talking to Jasmine and I said something that I suppose has always been in my mind but just that I didn't have the right occasion to say it out.

I like being new in some places. or at something. It gives me the extra advantage of making multiple mistakes and no one will blame you or even put pressure on you for it. you can make as many mistakes as you want, and along the way, learn. I'm not saying that you can't do so after being at some place/something for a while, but time supposedly grants you experience, which will turn into expectations. and those expectations kinda ties you down, cos everyone will get conscious, and scared of being judged. it takes away some fun, and THAT sucks.

so, I'm gonna cherish my time in being new in UG and also laolumni item.
gonna learn as much as I can, and do as many mistakes as I can heh.